Depression and Letting It Go

This past week a gentleman called from the East Coast with a beautiful accent that sounded vaguely Middle Eastern to me. Rather hesitantly he asked if I did alternative work to help people with depression.

I answered that I do alternative energy work to help people with all sorts of presenting problems including letting go of depression.

He asked me if I would be willing to tell him how. I said, "First I ask the client to briefly describe the top 1 or 2 symptoms of what they are experiencing as well as the result they desire. Then I ensure the Watchtowers of Archangelic Protection are strong before I ask Source, "What is the entry point? Dark Teachers? Past lives? Family bloodlines? If yes, maternal or paternal? Something else?"

In this gentleman's case, Source said, "Dark Teacher of Depression and others, then 3 past lives not on Earth, but elsewhere in third dimensional reality -- all three due to extreme suffering in intergalactic wars."

I told him every word that Source told me and acknowledged, "These kinds of memories, even if they only surface in feelings such as depression, can be very painful. At this time on Earth humanity is remembering things we have suppressed and repressed for millions of years. Why? We are waking up and we want to transmute these things of the shadow into Light."

In the sweetest of voices he said, "I did not understand much of what you said but your voice, your voice. Somehow I am calmer and a bit comforted."

I said, "When I am doing the work of Source my voice changes as the will of the God/Goddess comes through as an energetic transmission. If you wish, you can listen to the various recordings of Satsang with Source on the DWS website. They are free and posted for your unlimited access.

He felt he wanted to work with someone closer to him on the East Coast. I explained that, as of yet, I haven't trained any DWS Master Facilitators past Chicago and Texas. He asked, "Can you do this work by phone?"

I smiled, "Yes, Source can. Anywhere, in fact." I suggested he look for someone he felt could help him locally and explained that I will be available if he was Guided to work with me by phone."

He said something that deeply touched me, "Thank you for speaking with me in such a kind voice. When you feel depressed and do not know where to turn for help, a kind voice is a tremendous help. More than you can know." I vowed to remember this always, whether the person with whom I am speaking is depressed or not. A kind voice helps in every situation.

With another client, the entry point Source identified might just as easily have been something as different as, "Family bloodlines, maternal, 5th generation back. Encode Lessons of Divine Love and Light, remove Dark Teachers and non-beneficial energy patterns by the same energy signatures and heal 2 past lives.

These are examples of what it means to Dance with Source.

Our DWS Graduates group worked with a man a few years ago who had suicidal programming combined with enormous skepticism. He had been suicidal all his life from his earliest memories. With Source, we removed the suicidal program, the Dark Teachers and healed the past life in Asia where as a monk he had misused his power as a sacred teacher. He needed to do forgiveness of himself and Source, but he was not yet ready to go that far. He was utterly shocked when he arose from the table and the suicidal feeling was gone. That lasted for the remaining time I knew him but he never chose to release his skepticism. He felt it protected him and was not open at that point on his journey to understanding that he did not need protection from skepticism.

Source said, "I want people to understand the magnitude of freedom that is available to them. Suffering is not required.

Healing Me

I was born to two parents who should not have been parents; they should have healed themselves first, then re-evaluated. I was the middle child of two brothers, one older, one younger. For some reason I was the targeted child of all the men in my family. My mother was too weak and deferential to keep me safe from them and she certainly never found the courage to take me and leave.

I became the in house sexual servant of all three men: my father and my brothers by the time I was nine years old. I was 33 by the time I found Ashley and I hated God, my father, my brothers -- and myself. Interestingly, in writing this I noticed once again all the others were male.

The first thing Ashley had me do was express my anger. Whew! I pounded big pillows with a small bat, I screamed, I yelled my anger at each one of them and told them what I thought of their perversion and incest. It felt GREAT but finally I wore down. I mean how many times ...?

Then we moved to forgiveness or at least we started to move toward forgiveness. When I look backward at my behavior I am grateful Ashley didn't fire me. But she didn't. When she would invite me to forgive and I would refuse, she would painstakingly help me see 'underlying cause' from the inside-out. This means I would learn the truth of the person I was supposed to be forgiving in terms of suffering they had experienced. At first I would celebrate their pain. As far as I was concerned they couldn't have enough suffering. But somehow over time as I kept getting invited to forgive, refusing, and then seeing their underlying pain -- I changed. Slowly, very slowly, enough became enough.

Astonishingly, I began to feel compassion for my persecutors. And so I became able to forgive first my little brother, then my older brother, and to some extent myself for not finding a way to escape or hurt them or get help from the authorities.

Then I was tied between not being able to forgive God or my father. Back we went to expressing my deeply held anger. When I finally got enough of that expressed and simply ran out of energy to express it, I began learning 'underlying cause' in regards to my father and, ultimately was able to forgive him and myself -- for loving him so much and being so crushingly hurt by his behavior toward me. But i still faced this huge wall of anger, RAGE, toward God. How would He allow such things to occur?

Then the deep revelations began to occur: God is within me. I learned my own 'underlying cause' and what I was seeking to learn from having set this up to happen before I was ever born. And, finally, one day I forgave God and me, the God within me.

I was clean inside. Enough.

Through the workshops offered in the DWS mystery school, all are empowered to identify incongruencies with Highest Good & congruencies with what is not, create clear two-way communication with the Divine & transform past lives, trauma, disempowering genetic & behavioral inheritances through family bloodlines, disempowering core beliefs, karmic, mental, emotional & egoic patterns, programs, attachments, fragmentation of soul, personality & separation from Spirit, identification & removal of Dark Teachers & implants, as well as dynamic relationship work with the archetypes, concepts, ideas, people, places & things that hold us back from moving into our Light Bodies.

When we clear these & other 'buggy code' from our field we become progressively able tohold more Light & can be of greater service in the uplifting of human consciousnessin preparation for the Ascension.

We do this through advanced energetic healing workshops, private sessions, speaking engagements, and spiritual retreats in partnership with Source, the Archangels, Ascended Masters, and All Beings of Light.